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Daily Prompt: Silence

via Daily Prompt: Silence

Beauty is in silence. That is the time when minds go on rampage; when weย view all the colours of our souls and soil our canvases with the most beautiful art.

Pain is in silence. Sometimes, we suffer in the silence. We refuse to let our pain into the open. We hide all the wrongs that have been done to us in the dark folds of our quiet thoughts.

Silence is golden. Silence is darkness. Silence is all the words that have been formed without being written or spoken.

Loud…that’s what my silences are
The times when my thoughts go on rampage
When my emotions are let loose
At this time I have to bite my lip
To prevent to-be-regrets from slipping

Loud…that’s what my silences are
Intolerable and mind blowing
A time when my thoughts are chaotic, misguided, unguarded
When the storm in my mind will not cease
When my heart is heavy and
One breath can break me

Loud…that’s what my silences are
But I, only I hear them
For they are the silences within
Battles I must fight on my own
Battles that leave me drained.

Loud…that’s what my silences are
So when you see me silent, know
That that’s the time I’m screaming
Everything I cannot say aloud

Loud…that’s what my silences are.

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Transformation and Moving Forward: Moving Forward 25.06.16 PAS. F. Bailey

WARNING: If you do not believe in God or the Bible, do not read this post. If you do read it despite not believing in God or the Bible please do not leave any negative comments. It is a bit long in comparison to my other posts
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When God gives us a message, we should obey.
The church has become comfortable. As God did not intend for Moses to be in the wilderness so long (Deuteronomy 1:6-8), He did not intend for us to be on Earth so long

Recently, my former district pastor decided to pay my church a visit. Now, he sings like an angel and preaches like Paul so I was looking forward to an amazing Sabbath.

The church is undergoing a year-long study entitled “LORD, TRANSFORM ME” an initiative for the years 2015-2020. This is a programme geared at improving the lives of believers through Thanks-Living. The Psalms are filled with verbal praises (Psalm 9: 1). Daniel lifted up the name of God (Daniel 2: 19-23). However, God does not only want thanksgiving from the lips, but thanks-living that comes from the heart.

Thanks-Living considers three (3) factors:

๐Ÿ˜‡ย  Forgiving

Focus Verses: St. Matthew 18: 21-35; Ephesians 4: 31, 32

Forgiveness is an act of gratitude required to keep God’s grace flowing into our lives.
It shows that we have turned and moved from the mountain
Unforgiveness is like taking poison and expecting someone else to die.
It builds up anger, hate, stress and stagnates growth.

๐Ÿ˜‡ Healthy Living

Focus Verses: Romans 12: 1; 1 Corinthians 10: 31

We should lead and live sacrificial lives
The acronym NEW START is a guideline for healthy living.
Nutrition – eating right, preferably a vegetarian or other healthy lifestyle. It is proven that persons who follow the biblical/Seventh Day Adventist dietary lifestyle.

Exercise – at least light exercise three to seven times per week.

Water – drinking six to eight four ounce (4 oz.) glasses of water.

Sunlight – receive adequate amounts of sunlight in the early morning and late afternoon for Vitamin D
๐ŸŽถMr Golden Sun please shine down on me๐ŸŽถ

Temperance – in all things exercise self-control

Air – oxygen is needed to survive. If you live in a congested neighbourhood, take a visit to the countryside and BREATHE

Rest – we all hear this one often, but many of us are workaholics (or like me read-a-holics๐Ÿ˜‚) but we should try to get enough rest even if this does not mean sleeping. Take a few minutes to relax and rejuvenate

Trust – trust sets our mind at ease. Belief in a deity, a religious belief or having someone you trust is vital for peace of mind

๐Ÿ˜‡ Generous Giving

Focus Verses: Acts 10: 38; Galatians 6: 9, 10

Only a full sponge cannot absorb anymore. As children of God we should let go of old blessings so you can receive new ones.
We should not be selfish with the word of God or with our resources.

They set off to where it seemed impossible. (Deuteronomy 2: 1) That is Moving Forward.

Trust in God
Live with an attitude of gratitude
Honour God with what belongs to Him : Our Body, Finances and Time (Proverbs 3: 5-10)

Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. (Ephesians 4: 13, 14 ESV)

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What to Say

What do I say when I am distressed, but not in need of pity?
What do I say when I have to answer a question but I know if I open my mouth in that moment I will have regrets?
What do I say when I want to highlight something without embarrassing someone?
How do I comfort a depressed friend when I do not know what to say?
What do I say?

Words are one of the most powerful things. They have the power to build up and break down. Words have the power to create and destroy.

Words appear in so many formats:

๐Ÿ†Ž Thoughts
๐Ÿ†Ž Spoken
๐Ÿ†Ž Written
๐Ÿ†Ž Songs
๐Ÿ†Ž Gestures
๐Ÿ†Ž Symbols

Speech is one of the most universal forms of communication. With the rise of technology, the visually impaired are able to read, the hearing and speech impaired are able to speak with their hands, people from different nations are able to speak in each other’s language.

No longer is language a barrier to communicating effectively.
Yet with all the developments around us we still do not know what to say.

Everyday we are presented with situations that require us to be able to ‘colour’ our speech so it can accomplish a particular task and so often many of us fail. One word can lead to a missed opportunity, a broken heart a destroyed friendship, a huge misunderstanding.

The fact that we are unable to read the thoughts of our associates, adds to the difficulty in effective communication. Words are interpreted differently based on the listener.

Empathy is defined as the ability to understand and share the feelings of another.

Empathetic behaviour is a key to using words effectively.

Put on the other person’s skin and walk around in it

That is empathy and that is key in keeping charge of your sanity when the daily challenge of effective communication is presented.

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Truth? What truth?

Truth is defined as being in accordance with fact or reality.

Nowadays, truth is usually harsh or reveals a terrible secret. Truth is not always what we want to hear or suits our tastes.

Truth is like the yearly dose of Cod Liver Oil or a dinner of vegetables (not for me, I love veg๐Ÿ˜‰); you do not enjoy it but it is good for you.
Truth is rare like the antidote for a snake bite in a remote area. It is very difficult to find someone who speaks the truth, unedited and plain, no matter what.
If we are being honest with our selves we have at some point done some amount of embellishment to the truth so that it fits our purpose.
How often are we caught in situations where we omit or imply something from the whole truth then say it was a “little white lie”? How often have we been asked to raise a a hand if we know who committed a particular grievance and sat still as a statue?

There is nothing little or white about lies. Lies are deviations from the truth in any form.

They are all lies.
In reality the truth is sometimes the hardest thing to say. Face it, telling the truth sometimes puts us in a position to be punished or cause someone’s punishment. No one likes being the final weight in the balance, the one whom all the pressure is on to decide another person’s fate.

Lies come easily. It is easier to say “I did not…” when something is at stake rather than owning up.

However, it takes a strong person, a well-rounded individual, an honest person to own up to wrongs or mistakes. In the end, these are the persons who are able to sleep well at night as they have no nagging from their conscience, who have nothing to remember and need no creativity in speech because they spoke the truth, and can look anyone in the eye with no qualms that some terrible secret may be revealed.

One of the biggest favours one could ever do himself is speaking the truth, no matter what.

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I’m Fine

“Fine” when referring to feelings means satisfactory.

Some say that the biggest lie a human tells is that they are fine. The phrase “I’m fine” falls from the lips of many of those whom we claim to be close to, whenever they are asked how they are feeling. Being “just fine” is not a lie.

Being fine speaks of a person being battered, undergoing struggles that should weigh them down, feeling depressed, barely alive – yet still standing. “Fine is a simpler way of saying “I’ll be okay soon, it’s just a phase…a temporary situation” Fine is the only thing we can be when there are no other words to express our feelings. When we know that inside we are crumbling and weak, when everything seems to be crashing down on us – the only way to explain the tumultuous thoughts and haywire emotions is through that little four letter word.

F -Feelings
I -Inside
N -Not
E -Expressed

Today I want to be more than fine. I want to be happy. This takes tons of work. To be happy, we have to get rid of all the things that weigh us down and prevent smiles from forming on our faces. Some of these things are more easily accomplished than others as some unhappy situations have to be grown out of. Happiness is the ultimate goal in life. Whether it is getting to heaven, getting a degree, a good job or an award for something we have done, ultimately happiness, fulfilment and satisfaction are the things we expect and seek in life.

But until I can reply with a truthful and confident “I’m happy,” fine is good enough for me.

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Solo

Through experiences we learn to not let anything shock us anymore. People will change or will do what they were always capable of doing. Judging by appearances will only lead to disappointment as we may not only overlook strengths but also flaws.

Nothing and no one is perfect. We may try to attain perfection but in the end we only succeed in portraying a likeness of perfection.

People are like serpents; cunning and deceitful. We as human beings are like chameleons. We constantly change, sometimes reluctantly others willing and even unknowingly certain behavioural patterns seep in and slowly invade our own without our knowledge.

As humans, constantly seek out the flaws in others without recognizing the ones in ourselves. We only wish to make our side of the story beautiful by any means necessary. It is unwise to judge people as only they know what they are capable of and are willing to do.

Many of us wear masks. Either one that conceals our flaws, helps us to fit in or even displays an ugly side of us with which we are not satisfied. There comes a time, however, when we must remove our disguises and stand with all our secrets bared for the world to see.

Our enemies can end up being our strongest and most vocal allies. The people we trust and hold dearest to our hearts, sometimes betray us and they are the ones with the ability to hurt us. People are as changeable as time and weather.

A solid foundation can be built on nothing but self-reliance and self-esteem.

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Bleeding Love

I need some chain mail or a suit of armour for my heart๐Ÿ’“, because all people do is tear it apart๐Ÿ’”
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย  -Ntini Edwards

People come and go. It is the way it has always been. They come into our lives many ways and shake us up, pulling us out of our comfort zones. Some people come into our lives through birth, mutual acquaintances or unexpectedly – like that person you meet on the bus or in the plane.

There are people who waltz in and out of the shadows, hiding for a while then coming forward only to slip away again. Life sometimes hands us the good people – the ones who make us laugh and forget that there is evil in the world – only to snatch them away in the blink of an eye. Life takes them away through death, or even allows you to drift apart if it is feeling kind…

Everyone we associate with adds, takes away, reveals or refines something in us in a small way. We allow them to tweak tiny things and we do not even realize that there has been a change until they have left our lives, possibly forever.

Personally, I have met the good, bad and indifferent and each person has brought a change in me. Some of these changes refine and make me happy, others make me want to hide and cry my heart out and still others drive fear into my heart, making me wonder if that side of me is the real me.

Nothing can happen to us without our permission, whether we believe it or not. We have to do or say something that triggers an equal and opposite reaction. Meeting people is something we do everyday and we do not know who they truly are until we have had experiences with them and given them our silent permission to tweak the areas that they wish to.

I want to be a wise person. I know everything happens for a reason so, I wish I could see the reason for the people that waltz into my life and take a seat like they own it. I wish that I could decide who I want to meet and if I even want to meet anyone at all. The people that I grow attached to always leave the quickest without giving me a second glance and leave a new hole in my heart
                                             Musings of the author

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Who Feels It Knows

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When we love too much, we're bound to get hurt. The only thing that matters is if it was worth it.

No priceless treasure is found without drilling deep

Many times in life we come in contact with beautiful people. This beauty is not always only skin deep and sometimes we fail to recognize it at first glance. Sometimes there is beauty in that person, then with time…it vanishes. I am certain that people we love have left scars. Some hurt us without knowing, others look in your eyes with a smile while plunging a knife into your heart.

I have learnt that, after they have left, the people do not matter any more…it is the good memories. I guess if there are no good memories then we have nothing to dwell on. For me, personally, I get attached to people quite easily and although I have been hurt more than once it seems like I don’t learn. I believe it is a dangerous addiction to the feeling you get by caring about people. It is often painful, but, we are humans and seem to enjoy it.

For me, friendships do not usually last long so I enjoy them for as long as they last. “I am convinced now that love does not exist or at least if it does I am incapable of keeping it around long enough to even know it was love at all”, but, I have ceased questioning myself about what have I done, where did I go wrong and what is wrong with me? Some friendships are like those tropical romantic flings we read about so often. We enjoy the thrills and want it to last, but, not everything is durable and what we want is not always what’s best for us. As humans we all desire perfect, untainted, unconditional love from other, yet, we often fail to give the same. Some of us give of and give up ourselves with abandon while others trample our hearts in the dust. Being the carnal beings we are, we tend to always take instead of giving.

What happens when the wells are dry? the coffers empty? hearts bitter?

Friendships in and of themselves are beautiful. The people that waltz into our lives leave footprints and we leave footprints in the lives of others.
Let our footprints be delicate ones that do no harm in the lives of others.

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Just Ordinary People

We’re just ordinary people
We don’t know which way to go
Take it slow
-John Legend

As humans we are not in control of all that happens to us. Our lives are shaped by the society in which we live and the people in it. Even though we cannot constantly keep tabs on our lives, we can ensure that our lives are headed in the right direction by the choices we make.

Let us face it. Regardless of where we are in life, our status, who we are, what we can do, our skin colour, religious backgrounds, we all had to start somewhere. We all started our lives as helpless babies with other people making choices for us. As we grow (I say grow because we are still growing) older we learn to let go of some of those guardians and influences and want to do things on our own.

We are all just ordinary people. We, however have the potential to do extraordinary things. We can do whatever we are committed to, achieve as many goals as we aspire to, climb our own Everest and plant our flag.

Life is for living, making memories and mistakes, meeting people and living our dreams.Remember that we are just ordinary people, but, it takes ordinary people to make heroes.๐Ÿ˜

Enjoy life because…

Sometimes you only get one shot
Gotta give it all [you] got
‘Cause [you] ain’t got nothing to lose
So much to prove…
Gotta go hard or go home
-Jussie Smollett, Empire Season 1